Comfort Zone – Post 1
Happy March 6th y’all. Happy Second Monday in Lent.
On February 16th, I posted the below on my FB Wall. Over the past several years the tragedy of my life – as a child, as a young woman, and even the past decade has weighed on me to the point it really broke me in many ways. And I am thankful.
In the broken, I have been able to handle the pieces of tragedy in a way more positive way. I prayed before I wrote this post because in so many ways, it’s like a broken record. Holding myself accountable and taking responsibility for my lack of focus – on God, on my health, on so many things. And Lent is my saving Grace this year. Learning to fully rely on and trust God – not in a way that I “thought” I was… but truly realizing me that I can not say “Yes God, I trust you. But I’m gonna do what I want!” Trust is hard for me. Anyway…. Read these two pictures, and I will give an update at the end!
The book this passage is from is the Magnificat. I placed the link on the word. If anything happens to the link, go to http://www.magnificat.net and you will find it (and about a zillion other books you may “need”).
Just like the Israelites, mentioned above, I don’t trust God enough to believe HE will do what HE says. So Lent, for me, is a succession of stepping out of my comfort zone moments… in which I let God, my Father, guide me. Imagine that?!
Update: When I spoke to the doc, he said he wanted me to up my BP Meds (because I have a hereditary high BP). And he also recommended that I wean myself off the Anxiety/Depression meds slowly. I went to 1/4 of the dose and after a week realized half the dose is my number for now. Sadly – due to all I’ve walked through, I may have to be on meds long-term. Doc says that’s ok. It’s nothing I am doing wrong. Sigh. I am thankful for friends and family, and for praying people who have bolstered me throughout this period.
I love my medical team here in Italy. Truly they care. They have been instrumental in my learning to care for myself. I’m so thankful. And now that I am headed back to a better relationship with the Catholic Church and God (oh yes, I was flailing/failing both)… things are really looking up.
I will share with you, that a few weeks before Lent started, I reached out to our new Priest about confession and discussion. I hadn’t been to confession in about 18 months or so – not a stellar show of faith. I’d really given up in many ways. Sigh. But when I was speaking to my son about what he needed to do to get back to faith… I clearly heard THE FATHER speaking to me, through me. Sigh.
Now, I am off to do my Italian homework, and make a few cards. I will share the cards on the blog. Soon, I will share about a woman’s retreat I went on to Assisi. Talk about stepping out of my comfort zone. LOL You’ll see. Until Then…
Love, Hugs & Blessings,
2 thoughts on “Underestimating God ~ Trust is a Process”
Thank you Lady Em, I am very happy for you and where you are in terms of faith, I’ve been there. I wish you continued growth and health.
I spoke with a young lady from Ukraine who came with her parents to USA when she was 4 yoa, she’s in her 30’s now. She told me her maternal grandmother, while capable mind, wrote a letter to all her children and talked about everything she knew of her family so they could share in generations to come, I was so touched that I will be writing all I know for my 2 children. I wish I could open up more but it’s best that I just share with mothers out there to do the same while their minds are clear this way the children get the truth in therefore not be in the dark.
God bless you and yours🙏
Dear Olga, I’m sorry I didn’t reply sooner. I’m forgetful at this point. I hope you are well. Yes, I was so blessed to have a close relationship with my grandparents, and other older relatives. So much to learn from those who walked before. ❤